We chose the lessons that we are to learn on many levels in each life. There is a choice of underlying theme, the energy through which all other lessons will be played out, either we learn through yin, action, or yang, response to action. However, the purpose of the lessons, whichever path is chosen, both lead to self love, and true self worth so we become mirrors of the greater Self of which we are a projection.
The astrological chart is divided in two hemispheres, east and west. One side is the path of action, and the other is the path of response. Whichever side of the chart has a preponderance of planets will set the stage for how all other lessons will be learned. Either through cause and effect, or through acceptance and understanding.
My chart has a preponderance of charts of planets on the western side of the chart. My life has moved forward through my response to outer stimulus rather than through inner impulse or desire. My parents had very low expectations for me in terms of success in the outer world. My mother told me that the best I could hope for was to marry a man who could take care of me. There was no point in her mind of my attending college.
For me, as a Leo to the max, I just wanted love. However, inside it hurt that I would not ever be acknowledged or recognized for anything, also a Leo trait. Since my chart was predominantly yang, I accepted that and worked with it. My life, as I was designed to perceive it, progressed as a series of external events that I had to respond to. I responded to my parents lack of belief in higher education being a worthwhile investment for me by going directly into the job market.
Every move that I have made in my life, has been in response to, or more accurately in acceptance of the hand that life had dealt me in any given moment. There was no inner drive to attain anything. It never seemed to me that there was any room, or any time for me to pursue a personal goal, or for that matter, to define an inner goal. I was constantly dealing with what was on my plate and as soon as I finished dealing with what was on my plate, something else was on my plate. I could have very easily felt like a victim. But somehow, I had the belief that it was all a test of my ability to grow wherever I was planted, and to make something out of whatever I was handed.
I had no plan, I have never had a plan. For the first part of my life I did not feel that I had time to catch and dodge the balls that were constantly coming at me to make a plan. Then when my path concretized as a spiritual one, I realized that I was not here to plan. I was hear to learn from experience and teach from those experiences and my “higher education” was life itself. I am a catcher, not a pitcher. Those of us with the Sun and a predominance of planets on the right side of the chart are catchers. Our class is entitled “What to do when life hands you lemons” Our theme is understanding the purpose of what has been built, and doing the best with what we have been given. That is the course through which we learn self love, because it is easy to believe that life gives us lemons because we deserve no better. If it seems that we only get the coal, it is easy to believe that it is because we only deserve the coal, and value ourselves accordingly.
Our lesson, on this side is that coal is the package the diamond comes in, and that lemons are what lemonade is made from. Our wealth comes from seeing that we have been given the diamond and the lemonade if we only look inside. We are here to learn we cannot value ourselves based on the what is outside, or how things appear. We must learn to love ourselves and others because of what is inside, and each lesson that we learn, each test that we face in this life is a test of our ability to see the truth and in seeing the truth, we can then teach others to see it also. We learn that we do get what we deserve, and that is the power to transform whatever we get into beauty.
The other side, those who have the predominance of planets on the left side of the chart are driven from the inside to act in the world. They are born with a drive to reach some goal. They push forward in life. That inner motor is always ready to be turned on. At some point in their lives something happens that turns that key. There are many tangible examples of this, because their lives are written to be played out before others. So it is the actor whose key was turned after seeing a movie, or the singer whose key was turned after hearing the applause. The leader of a country, head of a corporation, inventor who changed the world with an invention. All of those whose lessons revolve around initiating and climbing learn their lessons through the concept of success and failure. Failure is the product of success and success is the product of failure.
On this side souls come in to learn that they are neither a reflection of what they achieve, nor a reflection of what they fail to achieve. Their lives are based on action, and that action is driven by an inner belief that the self will be fulfilled ONLY when this goal is attained. And whether the goal is altruistic, materialistic, or self aggrandizement, it is the placing of ones self worth, value on the ability to do, achieve or attain something outside of the self. It is the lesson theme that begins with, “I will be worthy of love, and valuable when I become, attain or achieve…” This is a lesson that we set up that revolves around judgment or ourselves and others based upon the success of ones actions. The outcome of ones actions. If we succeed in reaching our goal, we find that contains no joy, because the seeker is not the soul. It is the ego that if driven by the need for success, and the ego is always hungry and never satisfied.
The only way to self love for these souls is through right action. Action that is no longer to find the value of the self, but to build the value of others. The higher we climb in the material world, the emptier we feel inside. Because there is always higher to climb. And just as the other side, at some point we have to look deeper and realize that the hunger that drives us, is not fed until we use it to feed others. Only then do we meet the truth of our lives and reach what we were seeking all along, which is what we all seek, the vision of our own perfection and beauty.
There are two paths to the Truth that is within us, one is through action and one is through reaction but whether it is the action of one who creates, or the reaction of one who recycles, It is through the sharing of what one has created, built, or achieved, or the sharing of what one has survived, experienced, and then recycled that takes us to the place where we find and see the our beauty is beyond measure and our value is priceless.